Losing Family

Why is that we lose some of our family? I have no clue on why we do but it does happen everyday. Whether its by a death or them leaving or them getting sent off. I am the oldest child in my family. With my mom i have four siblings and with my dad i have two more siblings. Living with my mother was not easy and still isn't easy for the three left there. Now living with my dad was easy but he needs to learn how to put his foot down an stop doing bad habbits in front of the kids because both of them were following his footsteps. One of my brothers that lived near my dad already got sent of to a home for misbehaved children. An the other one will probably be sent off too. An with my mother us kids didn't get a life an the ones at home still don't get one. I lived with her until one week before i turned sixteen. All the way up to that point i had to take care of the kids, clean the house, cook and anything else she wanted. One of my brothers is two years younger than me an he was the first one i had to take care of. I fed him and changed him and everything else at the age of two. An the other is kids very in age. One of them is 7 years younger than me, another is 8 years younger and the third is about 13 years younger than me. I had to take care of each and everyone one of them. Now that im older and i look back on it i really didnt mind it bc at least they got fed and bathed and homework done. An they were not left to defend for themselves. Now the one that is two years younger got sent of a couple yrs ago for several months bc my moms husband put her upto it. An after that he joined the army to get away from her. An now for the one that is eight years younger she prob will be sent off here soon. She is bipolar like me but she has adhd also. An she has gotton into alot of trouble but i say she is doing the stuff she is doing because of the way they treat her at home. An the one that is 13 years younger is acting out in school and some other stuff an i say thats also bc the way she gets treated at home. An the one that is 7 years younger so far has gotton in trouble at school besides falling alseep in class but hey theres alot of us that did that. So i have a feeling i will be losing another one  or maybe even two of my siblings and that will be a tolal of 4 if they both get sent off. An I know they never acted this way when i was still living at home because i was actually there for them when they needed me and when i left my brother that is 2 years younger took that responsibility until he left. I had to leave because i was going to get sent off too. An none of these things started to happen until my mother got with the guy she is married to. My mom always does whatever the guy she is with wants her to do. The guy that she is with comes first and its always been this way, but things was never this bad until she got with the one she is married too. I think she needs to leave his butt. So to say i don't want her to be with him i hate his guts and i don't want him in our lives he just needs to leave. Oh and another thing is when he first got with my mother he told her he doesn't like kids but yet she stays with him.

My hero, my soldier, my brother!

So i have a brother that's in the army an i miss him dearly. I actually have two brothers in the army. One is going through the traing now an the other is over seas. Im closer and always have been to the one over seas. I can't wait for him to come home. He suppose to be home in four months an i hope he does get to come home. I havent seen him since January because he got to come back from over seas for two weeks to visit the family. He didn't even get to come home for Christmas an that sucked really bad. I miss seeing him and i miss talking to him everyday. I get to see and talk to him once in awhile through skype. I just can't wait for him to get to come home. I have been counting down the days!!!! An for my other brother he is actually my step brother. An we haven't seen each other in years an we finally found each other last year n im so happy i found him again. I miss hanging out with him and it sucks we live so far apart. An he has a brother and sister he has never met and hopefully one day i will be able to let them meet each other. I am so proud of both of my brothers!!!! An I will always support them no matter what their decisions are!!

America!

What does being an American mean? I believe it means that we was born in the USA. An being an American we are suppose to have freedom. Well we do get that freedom to a point. There are some things we can speak our minds about and then there is things you cant speak your mind about because some people take it offensive. What is America? America is where we should have our freedom. To get our freedom men and women have to go fight for our country. They have to put their lives on the line for us to have freedom. An yet there is people out there that doesn't respect or thank those men and women. If it wasn't for them we wouldn't have our freedom. People need to realize who helps fight for their freedom.